What Is Your Body Trying To Say?
Can you imagine who you would become if you stopped telling the tales and lies you have believed until now? If you were connected to your emotions? If you really listened to your body?
We grew up believing that in order to heal your body you needed the painkillers and antibiotics. In order to shut down the emotion, you needed; pills, drugs, alcohol, food, TV. We have become so disconnected from ourselves because we believe that in order to know ourselves we need a mediator. We have given the power to others to tell us who we are, what we lack or need because is more convenient, is easier to ignore your feelings, neglect your history, and resist the unknown. Introspection requires that we gather every piece of courage we have and take full responsibility for ourselves.
Three years ago, I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) and of course I listened to the doctor and started taking the pills without even questioning why were my ovaries feeling this way, what story I was telling myself that my ovaries were so sad?
An ovarian cyst indicates the accumulation of emotional energy or contrary feelings. I had a deep conflict expressing my femininity; I wasn’t understanding my creative energy, it was as if I "cut" off a part of myself. The ovaries are the beginning of creation they are located in the pelvis which is the region where I can give birth to a child, but also a place to grow new aspects of myself; a place where I can rediscover myself. I was creating an internal conflict against the creation and discovery of my own path.
I completely dishonored my body and never gave any space for my emotions to heal, which later manifested in my physical health. The body is so wise that it has been adapting to my wounds and circumstances, but the message is there for me to understand. As much as the eyes are meant to see, ears are meant to hear, my ovaries are meant to produce and create. My whole life I’ve been telling myself a story that wasn’t mine, I was disconnected from who I was, my feelings, my dreams, and my sacred feminine. I was not the woman I wanted to be and my ovaries were aligning to that belief.
In the healing journey, I have found the acceptance I needed in order to observe myself in front of life and situations, I have allowed those emotions to exist and to mutate in the magical process of embracing myself as a woman and creator. I’m having the opportunity to understand the cellular information, my lineage, conditions and memories that I was carrying from my ancestors. This introspection journey with sacred plants hasn’t been easy in any way, I have to peel each layer very carefully, face my fears, confront auto sabotage, but it has been a beautiful path where I need to stay humble and open. In my experience with sacred plants like; Ayahuasca, Sananga, Hapé, and Cacao, have been an important tool for understanding the path I’m walking.
Perhaps it’s time that we create our own myth, to write our own story, to regain our individuality, to acknowledge that if there is power; is already inside of us. Let’s look through the heart and see the opportunities in every obstacle, let’s understand our limitations, blockages, patterns, and habits; it’s ok to recognize them in order to forgive and heal. We can become conscious co-creators of our lives. We must honor and respect our existence in order to create a better dream and to act on inspiration and action. The most important thing to remember is that if you want to heal you need to become your own healer. Once you discover the hidden treasures; the renewal possibilities are endless.
Thank you for reading me.
Love,
Jessica
